Self-deprication is ruling the nation

Rain, rain

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 20:29:48 GMT

The weather outside (after walking in it for about 40 minutes) makes me want to curl up on the couch with one of the three books i'm working on. A cup of vanilla almond tea with honey would be good too.

I wish I had more time to spend reading. Really. I've started "Middlesex," have been wanting to start "Cut to the Twisp" and have jumped around a lot in "The Clumsiest People in Europe."

My stomach could also use the break (i.e. not drinking).

Muahaha

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 21:43:10 GMT

Today, acutally at midnight, is Jessica's 21st birthday. Please pray for her. She has no idea what we have planned for her.

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 09:12:52 GMT

It's been ages since i've written a story. Almost a year now. Wow. But after serious procrastination it seems to be going well (i think).
Writing at 2 a.m. makes me feel like I have homework and that I'm in college again. I'm up, drinking coffee, listen to iTunes and distracting myself by talking on IM and browsing LJ. Sometimes I wonder if things ever really change. Must.write.more.
Good nite all.

Sending myself to finishing school, Cont.

Mon, 09 May 2005 06:06:19 GMT

Keeping with my on-going feel better, live better, accomplish something, do good view on life (phew), i've added more to my plate of "doing."

1. Take voice lessons again.
I did this to freak myself out last fall and ended up enjoying the fuck out of it. Although it was ungodly expensive, it was totally refreshing, not to mention a complete adrenaline rush. I think it kinda helped because I can actually hear myself when I sing now and I have a "range."
Time frame: In the next month.

2. After taking voice lessons again, start and (possibly) front a rock band.
I was in a band before... in high school. We were a mellower grungesqu band called "Salt Lick" and we never played a show... we just practiced in my garage. Back then I played bass and sang backup. I eventually broke the band up because I started dating the drummer. Oops. Anyway, I think I could handle it now, I mean, I don't foresee dating any more drummers since I'll be at the top of the rock band food chain.
Time frame: Within a year.

3. Create (serious) art and display it, somewhere.
I really do think that I have amazing, smart ideas for a lot of stuff. Sure, I get to use them at work with my GO section but I don't come close to using 1/1000 of the ideas I have. I've been writing stuff down but, for some reason, i've been afraid to completely attempt it. And I know why i'm afraid (because it could really suck ass) but I need to just do it anyway, just to do it.
Time frame: Within the next two months.

I swear that I'm not crazy, really. See, I think that if you stop doing things (new, harder, scarier things) that you've given up on living life. Plus, where else am I going to get story to tell you guys?

To be continued....

Just sayin'

Mon, 09 May 2005 03:31:12 GMT

This new icon kicks ass.

I don't trust people who...

Wed, 04 May 2005 20:25:07 GMT

ride unicycles. wear ankle socks. smile at you for no aparent reason. cut their pizza or hot dog or chicken with a knife. drink pop in a can from a straw.

best shopping day ever

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 01:09:43 GMT

Today i hit up the Goodwill and spent over $70 on clothing and one pair of shoes. Then i went to antique row and spent $43 on a hanging orange 60s lamp and $27 on two amazing vintage dresses. I am so happy with my purchases that I may pee my pants. Since i am in the middle of a wardrobe revamp and have stuck with my new policy of never buying new again, I am pleased.

The other day I went to a yard sale that a few methheads were throwing. I bought an amazing 60s organ in mint condition for $30. I guess when you're on meth, everything must go.

A Dylan day

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 19:48:41 GMT

As I was standing in line at Starbucks this morning I heard Dylan playing over the store's intercom. There I realized that I am in kind of a Dylan moment in my life. It's hard to completely describe but I guess it has something to do with feeling so close with a lot of the lyrics. Currently I have been putting "Positively Fourth Street" on repeat, discovering something different in the lyrics/song each time. Although i've been feeling down as of late, the song makes me want to spit in someone's face. And although that's completely wrong, the thought makes me happy.

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 18:49:55 GMT

I know the switch to screen names is lame but I really had to get away from the old. It's had to explain but it wasn't 1.)Letting me actually post anymore 2.)It was making me sad.

But anyway here I am.

A larger update later.